I’m a bit of a control freak. Not so much that I can’t delegate when necessary, or that my house has to be perfect (trust me, one look and you’ll believe me). But I do feel a big ‘ol sense of responsibility and how can I be responsible if I’m not getting things done? Yeah, that doesn’t work so well with God. And right now, I think He’s trying to teach me a lesson. I’m just not a very good student.
There are some things in my life that I have absolutely no control over. Some things that I’ve worked really hard for that just aren’t coming to fruition as planned. And I’m struggling to not MAKE things happen. I keep thinking the “if only” thoughts. You know the ones. If only I had done this…or If only I had done that…or Not done that…etc. It’s easy to get stuck living in the if only. And that does one thing: stress me out. Even though I know I shouldn’t, I hang on to these things I want to control and take charge of, when really I need to let them go. The Bible is filled to the brim with verses and parables that remind us who is really in control.
He has clothed the lilies of the valley….Why wouldn’t He ensure that I am taken care of?
Cast your burdens, unto Jesus, for He cares for you….That means give it up. Let it go. Release yourself from your own chains of bondage and let God do what He says He will: provide. That’s His job. A father’s responsibility is to care for and provide for His children. As the Heavenly Father, why would I think He’d be shirking from His duities? He’s not, I’m just not letting him do his job.
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future….In other words, God’s already got it covered. He knows how this story ends, and it plays out a whole lot better if I just let Him lead the way.
Big breath here. Pull up the big girl panties, and let it go. Oh, it’s hard. Like I said, I’ve got control issues. But I’ve. Got. To. Let. It. Go. *Sigh* I’m working on it. I’ll get there.
How about you? Having any control issues? Have anything you’re working on letting go?