It’s been kind of a crazy week. I have typed and erased, written and deleted this post about 10 times now. I have so much to say, but I don’t know how to spit it out on the screen, and in all honesty, I don’t know where to begin.
I had a visit with my surgeon yesterday. I went in because regardless of taking the Met (1000 mg twice a day), working my butt of and trying to eat pretty healthy, I can’t seem to lose any of the weight I gained after surgery. I’m beyond frustrated, and unfortunately I’m pretty much just screwed. Though my body isn’t really the typical menopausal age, physiologically it is. So even though I’m only 31 and active and healthy, I’m still going to retain the weight that a woman much later on in life would. As she told me yesterday, there’s no magic bullet, and not really anything I can do differently. Yep, I’m screwed. Bloody hell that’s frustrating! And to top that off, I’m still not getting enough estrogen, even though I’m taking an oral dose, so that it’s systemic. Now I get to add the cream too. Not really what I was hoping for. And that’s not an easy fix either. It’s going to take 4+ months for that to really kick in and make all parts happy and healthy again. Which means still I can’t even get laid (sorry mom) without pain. Bloody hell again. *sigh* Now, I know that there are sooo many people so worse off than me in health and medical issues, but I can’t help but think, “Couldn’t God just throw me a bone?” I mean, if I can’t get knocked up, and never will, the least He could do is let me be skinny. Am I right? Sheesh. Take my uterus and ovaries, but tack on these thunder thighs and second ass while you’re at it. Ugh. So there’s my depressing moment. Pass me a pint of Haagendaus, it’s all staying on my behind anyway…
On a happy note, she thinks that by now most of my endo should be cleared up! So this will (hopefully) be my last Endo Awareness Month as an active participant. Wahoo to that! I still get a little ping of it every now and then, but nothing like it used to be. Gosh life is glamorous sans repro organs, isn’t it? 😉
Ah well. Life is good in other areas! I’ve got a few exciting possibilities out there, and I can’t wait for things to start settling into place. One thing I’ve always been really passionate about is missions trips. I was a missionary to Africa at the ripe old age of 18, and have hoped to give back again. Through the wonders of social media, I have met an amazing woman who does missions work in an orphanage in South America. I’ve been chatting with her some and am hoping to join her on a trip! I’m so excited, and will keep you in the loop as I find out more. I can’t wait!
On another happy note, a friend of mine had a baby last night, and this is a very special delivery! She and her hubby have struggled with infertility and had multiple rounds of pretty much everything known to man, when she finally was blessed to get pregnant. I am so eternally happy for them, and wish they and their little bundle nothing but love and joy.
Well, that’s my week in review. How’s your week going?