I’m taking a risk here, sisters. Well, really I’m taking a lot of them right now. I’ve put my heart and family on the line to bring home a precious baby, but this isn’t my first rodeo. No one knows better than me that it isn’t done and over until the fat lady sings and the judge slams that gavel. But we’re still putting our faith forward and taking this step. I’m also starting a new job in the fall. I love teaching, and have been offered a position as faculty in a nursing program about an hour away from our current home, which may mean a move is in our future. And I’m not sure how I feel about that. But the biggest risk, the largest leap of faith I’m taking? Well it’s right here. This blog. This book. This is the community I’m so praying is built, a table that is open for others to come, sit and partake, and feel understood. This is my God-sized dream. And I’m terrified.
Today my book went to marketing. I can now order my own copies and begin to set up book events and signings. I’ve so been looking forward to this day, and now that it’s here, well I’m not sure what to do with myself! I’ve put so much into this work. I’ve breathed life into the words and the pages. I’ve set my scars out to heal and my tears out to dry, for all the world to see. I’ve taken what is such an intimate and focused part of my innermost being, and I’ve cracked open the haggard shell for you to see. I have never in my life made myself so vulnerable. But I know that in order to make this less of a taboo and more of a conversation, it had to be done. And I have prayed that my story, my script will be the vessel through which great work is done.
I read today about the power in your story and I hope that this is true, that in sharing my story I can build this community of beautiful women. Proverbs 16:3 says “Commit to the Lord all that you do, and your plans will succeed”. Well, I’m committed. I’m standing on the edge of that ledge and I’m ready to jump. I’m not a risk-taker, ladies. I’m a pretty black and white, yes or no girl. But I’ve been called here, and I’m trying my best to listen. So, will you join me? Will you sit with me and have a cup of coffee as we build this community? Will you join me on my walk of faith as I commit this plan, this God-sized dream, and pray it sees fruition?
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