Today I’m joining up at Crystal Styne’s Place for her Behind the Scenes Link up!
OK, this picture isn’t actually mine, but I couldn’t help it. I stumbled upon a pic of one of these in a hospital gift shop on Twitter a few months ago and I loved it. Odd, you think? Who would want a stuffed uterus and ovaries? Well, I do-a little bit.
See it’s been nearly a year since I said goodbye to my goods. In three days it will be one year exactly since I have no longer been physically able (in theory) to carry children, ovulate or even have the hope of biological babes. In some ways I can’t believe how quickly the time has passed. It seems like only yesterday I was prepping in pre-op and waiting for my surgeon. It seems like only yesterday that I asked for my husband in post-op and saw his face ashen when he looked at me. (My man loves me with his whole heart, and he doesn’t do hospitals. He has good reason-he hasn’t had much luck with them.) It’s been nearly a year since that same man crippled me with laughter and brought me grocery bags of my favorite junk comfort food when I was having a hard night.
It’s been nearly a year since I realized that I will never, never have a biological child. Not through means of my own or surrogacy of another. It’s been nearly a year since I lost major organs. And sometimes I want them back. Not often, but sometimes, just to feel like one of the girls again.
But then I remember all the crappyness that came with them and I’m not so sad to have the Void (said as half the nation says Droid) in my belly. But still, maybe a stuffed one wouldn’t be all that much hassle.
p.s. If you want one you can order them at iheartguts.com.