It has been a few weeks and oh how I have missed Five Minute Fridays with Lisa Jo! And now, here we are, Friday Eve and a new prompt has been given. If you’re new to FMF, here’s the skinny: Lisa Jo gives us a promt, we write for 5 minutes-no edits, no takebacks-and link them up to her site. I’d love if you joined us!
It’s an irony sort of day today. I started off my morning reading a blog about truly seeing your children. Listening to that story, and really hearing. Watching them play, and truly watching. Then tonight, the prompt is see. And I’ve tried so hard to do this today. To really see my kids, what they are saying, what they are doing, and it hasn’t worked. We’ve had a banner night here at our house. X-man, who had an amazing break, has not had an amazing back to school week. Each night it’s as if he is looking for a fight. Throwing fits and screaming at the top of his lungs. Blood curdling, I’m-waiting-for-CPS-to-arrive screams. Because….because….I don’t know why. I kept thinking what does he want me to see? What am I missing? What is HE missing? Finally I did all I could think of to do-I held him in my arms and rocked him, as I would the babe. He fought. He pushed away from me, but he stopped screaming. And soon he stopped pushing. And finally, he came back. The boy I knew over break. The boy I see glimmers of. The boy he was made to be. And maybe that’s the lesson. Maybe he just needs me to see him-the boy he is meant to be, made to be-the boy he so desperately wants to be. The one who is happy. The one who is fearless and daring-the next X-Games master, the future Olympian. Maybe he just needs me to see him, so that he knows some one does. So he knows someone has hope. So he knows he can be that boy-at peace, happy. Maybe he just needs to be seen.